Christian Meditation - Heart Change From the Inside Out

I liked school-it was fun for me, so I stayed for abe sure that change is not complete!
while. But I've discovered that the really importantBut more and more, as I open my heart to God's
learning doesn't happen in school.spirit, I can trust that He will grow me in kindness.
The really important stuff happens from theHe will pierce me with words that touch my heart.
inside out. It grows from a place much deeperHe will give me opportunities to experience
than thinking, much richer than words. The reallykindness, and provide lessons-in-action. And slowly,
important stuff happens when your heart isI will become more kind.
changed.But in order to experience the lessons, to make
Take kindness, for example. I'm not always asthe heart change, I have to open myself to Him. I
kind as I want to be--especially when I'm irritated,have to be willing to be changed, and allow the
or rushed, or when I know I've been wronged. Iprocess to occur.
could have tried reading up on kindness,That takes time, and space, and a constant
memorizing the steps of being kind, planning andre-opening of closed places.
strategizing about when and where to be kind.Where does your heart need to open, to deepen
And all that research might allow me to talk aboutand change? Where in your life do you actively
kindness like an authority (or even write an articleopen to God's intrusion? When do you leave time
on kindness!) but it wouldn't make me kind.for longing to appear? Time for Him to work in
My heart has to be changed if kindness is goingyour heart?
to flow from me out to you.We really don't multi-task, you know. We just
Especially if you rub me the wrong way!'partly-task'. And that works great for some
When you're growing as a person, when you'rethings. But for transformation, we need our whole
deepening your heart and transforming your mind,heart engaged. We don't need to remember the
it doesn't often matter whether or not youwords. We just need to be transformed. From
remember the words. In fact, knowing the wordsthe inside out.
may not mean a thing. What matters is that yourActually, remembering the words might be easier!
heart is changed. Once that happens, your wordsMeditation is the active opening of heart space
and actions follow along like the wagging tailand time. When you meditate, you won't often
follows the dog.notice that you're being transformed. It's really
Last evening, during my prayer and meditation, aaffirming when we experience it as it happens...but
longing for more kindness toward otherswhen we're open and receptive, it happens
appeared in my heart. And with that longing, thewhether we 'see' it, or 'feel' it, or not.
change began. I was with some new people soonIt's a pain to stop long enough to open a 'heart
after...not all of them my favorite! And I wasspace' in the flow of everyday life.
surprised to find myself being more kind as weBut there is a great return on your investment.
talked at dinner, giving my full attention toTransformation, from the inside out. And you
someone I had previously blocked...though you candon't even have to remember the words.