Meditation and the Tyranny of Thoughts

The Insightthinking about focusing on my breath, I'm seeing
The popularity of meditation rises and fallsthe idea of breath, and suddenly I realize that I
according to the levels of fear, insecurity andam no longer experiencing my breath directly but
uncertainty experienced by any given Humanonly paying attention to my thoughts about
population. But meditation is not like many otherbreath. One awareness is the actual experience of
disciplines that are less difficult to master, andwhat is going on right here and right now, the
what makes it so difficult is found in the veryother is the conceptual experience of a collection
nature of meditation itself. So many people areof words in my mind that form an idea of what is
unable to overcome the challenges of this uniquelygoing on. The act of realizing that my awareness
powerful tool and therefore are unable to takehas shifted from direct experience to an
advantage of its powerful benefits, that I thoughtintellectual construct is called mindfulness and is
a little insight into the basics of all meditationthe all important recognition of the subtle shift of
techniques might help.attention.
What, Where and When Am I?
The Subtle ShiftThe reason I call it the subtle shift is, well, it's so
This awareness is a very different kind ofsubtle that a beginning meditator doesn't notice
awareness, or perhaps more precisely, a differentthat their attention has shifted away from the
level of awareness. It is the illusive nature of thishere and now. This changes in time, as we begin
awareness that has resulted in so many peopleto develop our mindfulness, that unattached
giving up on meditation before they begin toobserver that does not respond to the random
realize any benefits. They are simply not preparedthoughts of the mind but only notices them arise
for the alien reality that is native to meditation.and fall from awareness. Not all thoughts are
And this is the irony of the world according tomeaningless, some of the thoughts that bubble up
meditation. That alien reality that we are notfrom our unconscious mind are about issues that
prepared for, is actually the real world, reality as itwe needed to become aware of in order to deal
truly is. The question is; if that is the real world,with them once and for all. But still, we don't get
what world are we living in? Which is the questioninvolved emotionally or intellectually, we don't let
and the need that we turn to meditation to solvethe tyranny of our random thoughts take us to
in the first place; the need to see the world as itthe past or future or some abstract imaginary
truly is, rather than our conceptualized versions ofreality.
reality.Eventually, with practice, we develop the mental
This brings us to what I call the subtle shift. Anddiscipline and mindfulness necessary to allow us to
this is where most people succeed or fail atbe aware of the activity of our mind and what
meditation. The subtle shift is the shift of ourour thoughts are about, where our thoughts are
attention from one reality to another, one level ofabout, when our thoughts are about, as they are
awareness to another, one state ofabout. When this occurs, we begin to see what is
consciousness to another. Most meditationreal and what is not, we begin to see reality as it
techniques require that we sit motionless and trytruly is, when it truly is, where it truly is. More
to focus our attention on some object orthan any other discipline, meditation requires the
condition. Let's take the vipassana technique whichinvestment of patience, commitment and
focuses on the breath. There I sit focused on theperseverance, but the return on these
experience of breathing, I feel the air passinginvestments can be huge in both the spiritual and
across the entrance of my nose as it comes inmaterial worlds.
and goes out. But then something happens, I'm