Secrets of Meditation, Part 2: Letting Go

Most people who avoid meditation do so becauseBuddha's native language, and means "inward
they think it is too hard. Too tedious. Too boring.vision." I figured if it worked for the Buddha, it
Sitting silently, doing nothing, watching the grassmight work for me. I was relatively new to
grow by itself? Forget it. Let's watch TV! Let usmeditation. This sounded like a piece of cake: 10
meditate on something important, like "Americandays of sitting silently, doing nothing.
Idol."Oh yes, we were blindfolded for each one-hour
The first problem is one of definition. The Englishsitting. Nine hours a day of sitting, one hour of the
language says that meditation means to thinkawareness walk. Spartan meals: veggies, beans,
about something, to meditation "on" a subject; tobrown rice, tea. All this in total silence, without
reflect; to contemplate. To get at the realeven eye contact with the 30 or 40 other
meaning of meditation, we have to look at themeditators. Except every three days we could
word Zen, which is derived from Japanese andtalk for a few minutes with one of the two
Chinese roots and means emptying your mind ofretreat facilitators.
all thinking.At the end of the first day -- no, make that the
So from the get-go, the idea that thinking aboutfirst couple of hours -- I thought I was going to
things is meditation is going off in the oppositego mad. My mind, freed from all distractions and
direction of where we want to be. Meditation is aallowed to turn in on itself, went on a wild
state of absolute silence, of profound inner peace.rampage that I had never experienced before.
It is about not thinking, but about being aware.Thoughts tumbled and crashed into each other; I
How to achieve that state is what this series is alltook crazy fantasy trips and wrote magazine
about.articles and a whole book about the experience --
In the late Seventies I journeyed to an ashram inin my mind. Soon I learned to peek around my
India to learn to meditate, to find out who I was,blindfold so I would have some frame of
and to clear the cobwebs from my mind. Thereference. The sight of birds outside kept me
whole trip verged on cliché: I was tryingsane for three days.
to get off the substance abuse joyride, at theFinally, on the seventh day, I got IT: It is all about
same time suffering from an advanced case ofwatching the mind. Watching those crazy thoughts
existential angst.and fantasies and ideas, like they belong to
The ashram offered an assortment ofsomeone else, some other guy's movie, a bunch
meditations and therapy groups. I signed up for aof images strung together in random order.
10-day retreat called Vipassana, which is theWhen watched, the mind tends to calm down.
ancient Buddhist insight meditation. It is how theThe object: Letting go of all that mind turmoil, and
Buddha became enlightened, though it took himjust becoming silent and peaceful. Real meditation
nearly seven years.means to relax into doing nothing, being nothing,
The word Vipassana comes from Pali, Gautamautterly relaxed and resting in one's own being.