Reclaiming your Spiritual Self

The aftereffects of verbal, physical or sexual(Dissociative state) accepting the blame, etc.Dying:
abuse are profound, extensive and pervasive. It isUnable to withstand the horrific emotional
a soul injury. The soul is the center of ourdevestation--guilt, shame, humiliation, responsibility
spirituality. Before the child has the opportunity toof being the cause, detrayal of trust, manipulation,
experience him or herself as a fully functioningetc. the child sometimes becomes physically
human being, they have been sexually ordepleated and can not maintain health--therefore
physically abused--more often than not by thedies.Going crazy: i.e. becoming psychotic, or totally
person with whom the child has implicit trust--thedysfunctional,Telling: The survivor tells someone
person who is required to protect them from allwho stops the abuse or Confronting the
harm--the parent or another trusted adult. Childrenperpetrator, thus risking not being believed and
as young as one month are sexuallypossible recriminations: Many children do protest
abused--genital fondling, oral sex, digital or objectthe abuse and when they do the abuse stops,
penetration are the common forms of infanthowever, there are exceptions. The abuse
sexual abuse.Children are taught that Godstopped temporarily, but the perpetrator resumed
protects us from harm. But how can that be trueagain with a different approach thus binding the
when the child was harmed by the person whochild into a more insidious trap.Regaining one's
claims to love him/her? they wonder. An insidiousspirituality is difficult, but it is possible. The journey
dilemma is established. Many religions also teachto regaining one's spirituality as in the recovery
that God punishes those who are "bad." "I mustprocess is unique to each individual. There are
be bad," the child reasons, "because God did notmany excellent sources to aid you in this
protect me. God must be punishing me for beingprocess.The following publications are only a few
bad. I am to blame. I am guilty. What did I do toof the many noteworthy sources for healing
deserve this?" Self-loathing, shame and guiltspiritual wounds:Title/Author(s)Conversations with
becomes the person's self-perception. Frequently,God: Books I, II, III, IV - Neale Donald WalschA
physcial/sexual abuse survivors no longer believeCourse in Miracles - Helen Schucman and William
in God. While they may go to church and professThetfordLove is Letting Go of Fear - Gerald
their faith--there is an emptiness at the center ofJampolsky, MDSacred Contracts - Caroline
their soul. "If God was real why did he let me beMyssWhy People Don't Heal and How They Can -
abused?" they ponder.There is a poignant andCaroline Myss, MDReturn to Love: Reflections on
profound explanation to this pondering. God didthe Principles of a Course in Miracles - Marianne
protect the survivor. God helped the survivor toWilliamsonIlluminata: A Return to Prayer - Marianne
survive the most heinous experience anyoneWilliamsonSelf-Esteem: Loving Yourself and
could have. God protected the survivor by givingEmotional Self-Sufficiency
information on how to stay alive, how to avoid- Marianne WilliamsonHow to know God: The
going crazy while living in a crazy environment.Soul's Journey into the Mystery of Mysteries -
Furthermore, God in various and sundry waysDeepak Chopra, MDMolecules of Emotion: Why
brings informaton to the perpetrator, so that theYou Feel the Way You Feel -
perpetrator knows and understands his/herDeepak Chopra, MDThe Power of Now: A Guide
behavior is unacceptable and the damage that theto Spiritual Enlightment - Eckhart, et alThere's a
victim will incur. However, God can not makeSpiritual Solution to Every Problem - Wayne W.
anyone hear or believe the information. Thus, theDyer, PhDYou Will See It, When You Believe It -
perpetrator's actions are undeterred even throughWayne W. Dyer, PhDThe Transformative Power
God's work. Traditional religion labels theof Crisis--Our Journey to Psychological Healing and
perpetrator a sinner.A child has only four possibleSpiritual Awakening - Robert M. Alter/Jane
alternatives during the ordeal of sexual/physicalAlterDorothy M. Neddermeyer, PhD, author, If I'd
abuse, whether that ordeal is over a period ofOnly Known...Sexual Abuse in or out of the Family:
years or a instant.The choices are:Doing what theA Guide to Prevention, is noted for her pioneering
child did: i.e. numbing out, zoning out, going intowork in verbal, physical and sexual abuse
psychogenic amnesia, splitting the mind off,prevention and recovery.